Wicked Girls Saving Ourselves
Sep. 16th, 2010 07:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
technocracygirlI'd heard of the song a long time back, especially at this post, where the author, Seanan McGuire, asks for other women to write verses for. I liked the song, but only intellectually. It's hard to love a song you've never heard.
Then, at the great big author/song shindig at Wayward a few months back, Kitten Sundae plus extra Seanan sprinkles performed it as their "last" song.
I cried. I stood, at the back of the official audience area, with tears not quite fully streaming down my face, but only because it was hot and I was probably dehydrated. Everyone else seemed to adore the last song, which was brand-new, but, really, I couldn't tell you what that song was if I'd tried. There was something in that song that touched me in a very raw, searing, soul-deep part of my soul that's not quite healed.
Fast forward a few weeks. I want to hear this song again. Desparately, desparately want this song. But the pre-order page for Seanan's Wicked Girls page said that the pre-orders weren't available yet, and anyway, pre-orders don't help when you want the song NOW. (I should note that the album is up for pre-orders now. I am waiting for the next paycheck.)
And now I will never again be irritated by fans with video cameras again, because two blessed fans taped two different versions of the song being performed. And I can listen to the song again, and again, and again.
And I still cry. Every darned time.
Part of it is guilt or shame, for feeling like I've not lived up to the song's themes. Part of it is pure, unadulterated joy, at the sheer possibility of the song, of the meaning behind it, of the joyous audacity, of the strength, and the verve, and the awesome-ness. But really, I don't know why. I just know that I love this song. (Of course, this is obvious, or I wouldn't be burbling all about it on the internet.)
Here's the link to the video of Seanan and Vixy singing it. This one is my favorite, though, because Sooj is Vixy's backup, and as awesome as Seanan is, I love Sooj. Plus, the sound quality is better. Probably because SoulFood has warmer acoustics.
Listen to it or don't, either is fine with me. Most of you dislike or despise filk, and I'm not into making people listen to music they hate. But I doubt that most of my friendslist has ever heard of this song, and it seems very unfair to keep it to myself.
Then, at the great big author/song shindig at Wayward a few months back, Kitten Sundae plus extra Seanan sprinkles performed it as their "last" song.
I cried. I stood, at the back of the official audience area, with tears not quite fully streaming down my face, but only because it was hot and I was probably dehydrated. Everyone else seemed to adore the last song, which was brand-new, but, really, I couldn't tell you what that song was if I'd tried. There was something in that song that touched me in a very raw, searing, soul-deep part of my soul that's not quite healed.
Fast forward a few weeks. I want to hear this song again. Desparately, desparately want this song. But the pre-order page for Seanan's Wicked Girls page said that the pre-orders weren't available yet, and anyway, pre-orders don't help when you want the song NOW. (I should note that the album is up for pre-orders now. I am waiting for the next paycheck.)
And now I will never again be irritated by fans with video cameras again, because two blessed fans taped two different versions of the song being performed. And I can listen to the song again, and again, and again.
And I still cry. Every darned time.
Part of it is guilt or shame, for feeling like I've not lived up to the song's themes. Part of it is pure, unadulterated joy, at the sheer possibility of the song, of the meaning behind it, of the joyous audacity, of the strength, and the verve, and the awesome-ness. But really, I don't know why. I just know that I love this song. (Of course, this is obvious, or I wouldn't be burbling all about it on the internet.)
Here's the link to the video of Seanan and Vixy singing it. This one is my favorite, though, because Sooj is Vixy's backup, and as awesome as Seanan is, I love Sooj. Plus, the sound quality is better. Probably because SoulFood has warmer acoustics.
Listen to it or don't, either is fine with me. Most of you dislike or despise filk, and I'm not into making people listen to music they hate. But I doubt that most of my friendslist has ever heard of this song, and it seems very unfair to keep it to myself.
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Date: 2010-09-17 04:05 pm (UTC)And one queen said 'I am not a toy', and she never returned.
O_O
WOW. That is the BEST spin on Susan's "fall from grace" that I have EVER seen!
And I totally get why this song grabbed you.
I think I have to get this album, too.
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Date: 2010-09-17 05:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-09-25 02:20 am (UTC)(FOAF'ing from
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Date: 2010-09-25 10:34 am (UTC)(And you're not crazy; you don't know me in RL. I think I found you a long time ago through fandom or comments or 'Find people with similar interests' or somesuch, and have been following you ever since. I'd love to meet you in RL!)
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